Title: This is How I Lied
Author: Heather Gudenkauf
Publisher: Park Row
Holy wow!This the first novel that I have read from Heather Gudenkauf and it will definitely not be the last one. This book really kept me on the edge of my seat. I can’t even begin to put into words just how amazing this book was.
The novel has three narrators throughout the story, and it takes place between two years, 1995 and 2020. The three narrators are Maggie O’Keefe, Eve Knox, and Nola Knox. Maggie O’Keefe is investigating the death of her best friend Eve Knox 25 years ago after the cold case reopens after a kid finds a boot that belonged to Eve O’Keefe. Maggie, super pregnant (after trying so many times with her husband) and dealing with personal issues of her own, decides to take on the case after many of her loved ones including her husband Shaun question her if she’s going to be ok tackling it being as though Maggie cannot go through any stress. Maggie assures everyone that she will be okay and begins her investigation. She also realizes how difficult this will be as many secrets will come to surface as well.
Eve Knox is a 15 year old girl who lives with her hardworking mother at the time and her strange sister Nola Knox. Eve is also in a horrible abusive relationship with a guy named Nick. Eve doesn’t want to admit it but she’s a great danger around Nick. He slaps her around constantly, squeezes her, pinches her, and verbally abuses her as well. Maggie and Nola see the abuse she goes through on a daily basis as well and have advised her many times to dump the scum that is Nick. But, Eve keeps making excuses. The story goes between the year she was murdered and present day to gives a trial of events that eventually led to her death that fateful day.
Nola Knox is a rally strange girl and I’ve caught myself many times being disgusted and irritated by her. I really wanted to jump through the book and strangle her but, woozaaaa. Nola is a psycho, there’s just no easy way to sugarcoat it. She has a weird fascination with dissecting animals and collecting animal bones etc. During the novel were also given a look into her and her psychiatrists transcript from her appointments. It was advised for her to attend a psychiatrist after her sister Eve has passed away. During these transcripts you really start to think how someone like Nola is out and about in regular society. She was really a cringy character and I was so suspicious of her from the very beginning.
Throughout the book Heather Gudenkauf leaves you guessing who the killer of Eve was and just when you think you have it figured out she throws major curveballs your way. I must admit she really caught me a few times like that. The book was fast paced and fills you with a high anxiety adrenaline rush in your body. I felt exhilarated! Any author that can make you feel that way is definitely someone I would read another book from. Do I recommend this book? ABSOLUTELY! This book was written amazingly and not once did I catch myself bored. Go get your copy today!
HUGE thanks to NetGalley and Harlequin Park Row books for a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.